You should have waited a month. Then it would have been a full year between posts.

I totally agree with you. And not only do we hurt others when we make assumptions. A lot of times because of our assumptions about others, we close ourselves off to opportunities as well.

When my grandmother died, I wrote a song for her. I don’t remember most of the words, but I do remember this:

“Hear how the angels sing!
They sing for you!
They sing for you!

May your Jesus hold you
Now and ’til the end of time.”

I know you’re resting in the knowledge that your grandfather has finally joined the ranks of the living. Those of us who are dead must simply do what the dead have always done: mourn for our loss, rejoice for heaven’s gain, and resume our own marches to the grave.

We all love you.

It really sucks to feel regret and unadulterated anger towards _______________.

But the reality is that God gave us emotions and to not feel them is to deny who/what we were created to be…. My suggestion to you is simple; cry it out to God, let Him know how you feel (I mean He already knows but you get my point) get angry, ugly (as if it is possible *wink) and real with yourself and Papa. And in the end, let it go, let Him receive it. HE will, and He will heal you of this. Patti is right you can do this…this thing called LOVE!

I am sorry for your loss and if you need anything let us know! ♥

John, Steph, Aaron, Chris and Elizabeth became my family when my family either pushed me away or died. If it wasn’t for John and Aaron, specficially, I can tell you I would not even been walking on this planet right now.

It’s insane that our biologics disappoint us and do stupid, stupid, things to hurt us – and to each other, for that fact. When the deepest part of you yearns for that relationship that should be the most purest form of unconditional love, its sucks to find that there is not even a basis for a relationship there at all.

This is the message that we carry sweet pea – that is to love one another, as Christ did. Jesus didn’t say “only love someone if they don’t hurt you” or “don’t love someone if they rob you of ____________ (innocence… relationships… etc. fill in your own blank, because we all have something that goes in there). You are facing the truest test of this walk that we have chosen for ourselves – to love unconditionally.

Is it fair? No. Does it hurt? yes. Is it easy? Absolutly not. But you have something that your biologics do not have. You have a family. Those that will love you and support you and get you through those days when you wish you could just speak your mind to those that have harmed you. Those that understand and accept your for who you are. You can do it. You have it in you. THIS is your legacy.