It is Finished…well Sorta…

So I’ve resigned from my job.  In fact, I already have a new one I start on August 18.  That means I have an actual summer with not but one camp to go to-not the 4 I’m used to.  Things have been pretty crazy and I do apologize for not blogging more but everyone who reads this blog (for the most part) knows the insanity that has been occuring in my life.

Right now I feel like I need a very long holiday.  To even begin to type out all the occurences and trials of the past few months seems exhausting.  Now please don’t get me wrong.  I’m not trying to be melodramatic but it just almost seems pointlessto drag you through the details of the battle.  Let’s just put it this way-God’s will always prevails and as usual he teaches you something (a lot) in the midst of the fray.  I have learned so much from this incredible experience.  I possess some understanding of things now that I never used to.

One thing is for sure:  I LOATHE GOSSIP.  Never have I quite understood so clearly how cancerous and crawling gossip is.  I now hold myself to a standard I probably couldn’t before.  I have made a clear cut choice to keep my mouth shut regarding things that are simply none of your (i.e. generic) business.  I know the world is full of gossipers and I cannot stop others from gossiping but one thing is for certain.  I will not tolerate it of myself nor of those I train and work with.  Gossip is not only damaging to the person speaking it, but the person being spoken of , all those who hear it, and the organization(s) that said persons belong to.  Gossip may be true or false.  It doesn’t matter.  If it is a rumor, don’t spread it.  If it is true, then let the person to whom the information rightfully belongs, share it.  Why do people not learn from their mistakes?!  I do not claim to know all of the affects of gossip but one warning I give and I hope you heed.  Keep this disease far from you, your loved ones, and your work.  WALK AWAY when you hear its tentacles approaching and RUN if YOU begin to open your mouth. 

Another thing I have gained from this experience is that NO MATTER WHAT, DO THE RIGHT THING.  “Keep your oath, even to your own hurt.”  Let no one be able to speak evil of you.  Though many will speak lies, decet, and malice against you despite your truth and good intent, let your actions, intents, thoughts, and heart be pure.  I wish no one the pain of seeing and hearing people around you speaking evil of you when you have done no evil.  Yet we ask and pray, “…That I may share in the fellowship of His sufferings, being made like Him in His Death…”  Even when the whole world turns against you and you have done no wrong, DO THE RIGHT THING.  You will be vindicated-whether in this life or the next.  But it is not your job to determine that.  The battle is the Lord’s.  And vindication is from Him. 

Pray for those who hurt you.  Never have I quite so clearly understood what Jesus meant when He said this.  Oh, pleae pray for them.  They don’t know what they are doing and they need your help.  We have grace to help us in time of need but for those who are are lost, in the world, and speak evil against the children of God-oh! they need your prayers!  I don’t think I can quite explain this fully.  Perhaps when one experiences it, then and maybe only then, will you fully understand it.

No matter what, you must follow and obey God’s leading.  Wherever He leads, we must follow.  It doesn’t matter who it takes you from, who it puts you with, you must go on with God.  If not, you will be miserable. 

I told God a few months back that I didn’t mind getting older (even though I’m only 25), because I would gladly pay the price of youth for wisdom and understanding.  I’m not going to say that I’ve lost my youth or certainly not that I have all the wisdom I need, but I have paid a heavy cost for learning what I’ve learned over the past two years and more increasingly over the past few months.  But I wouldn’t change a thing.  God knows why I went through this and though I only see a small puzzle piece now, He sees the masterpiece.  He’s the artist and I trust what He’s creating.  He is God, I am man.  He is Sovereign. 

Please, TRUST HIM.