Hello world!

Well, I’ve given in! I have come over to the Dark Side and started a blog!  Only the Force knows whether I will keep it up or not!  ; )

 Today has been one hullabaloo of a day.  Frankly, the whole week has.  Actually, my life seems to be a’going (yes a’going Aaron) pretty well….um….to put it nicely…very nicely…interesting. 

As a teacher at a very well-known supposedly hoity toity district in this area, I am constantly watching my back and watching what comes out of my mouth and who is around me.  Even on a weblog ( I guess especially on a weblog) I think I have to be careful of what I say or else the powers that be (i.e. meddling, bottomless wallet parents who have nothing better to do with their time than to get pedicures and massages while their children attend a school that is chincy, poorly maintained, unsupportive of their staff thus causing us all to be incredibly dissatisfied) may complain about me to an administration that shudders at the sight of a parent and would gladly throw a teacher’s dead carcass to them without a thought as long as it saved face. 

 That being said, I just don’t know how much I can say in America, the land of free speech.

Anyhoo, today was one of those days where I question my existence, purpose, and come to the realization that perhaps I have totally screwed up my life beyond recovery and will never live up to the dreams I’ve had for myself.  These days come more and more often as I’ve begun working in the drudgery of a school district.  If a movie of my work-life were made, the overall hue of the lighting would be that creepy sallow green that’s only seen in crazy person movies with streams of radiant white light shattering it at times.  That radiant light would be the smiles of my dancer that finally hits her double pirouette, or the hug I get every morning from the same girl just ‘cuz she’s glad to see me; or the knowledge that when I finally get home I can to spend all night lying next to my husband; or even the special random texts I get from my good friends.  (Those always make my day!) 

 So I wonder…is this what life is supposed to be?  Are you supposed to dread work every morning, try to rush through it, just to start over again and then finally one day collapse from sheer emotional, mental, and physical exhaustion?  What kind of insanity is this?!  Apparently it’s running rampid throughout the entire United States and more than likely the world.   (Maybe I should become a psychologist so I can treat this said insanity…here we go again.)